In both “Safari” and “Ask Me If I Care” the language is marked with a bare sort of beauty. “Safari,” through its shifting viewpoint, offers up Africa, where “the sky is crammed full of stars” by night and “surrounded by the hot, blank day.” In the same lustrous way “Ask Me If I Care” gives us California in the late 1970’s, but this is from the tapered perspective of a teenaged girl named Rhea. Her first view reels us in: “Late at night, when there’s nowhere else to go, we go to Alice’s house… to Sea Cliff.” Outside there is “fog sneaking through the eucalyptus trees,” and inside there is “white cotton-candy carpet, so thick it muffles every trace of us.” Rhea lets us know what the deal is: punk bands, girls who love boys who love other girls, slam dancing, multiple piercings, the beauty of a friendship that’s moved from hopscotch to quaaludes. She’s certain that her dog collar and green hair will dissuade anyone from pointing her out as “the girl with freckles,” but obviously she’s worried about this, too.
Like Charlie, Rhea is a girl on the verge: of sexuality, independence, great things. And yet it seems neither wants to step away from childhood too quickly. They see the undefined side of things and they have opinions—Charlie of her father’s college-aged lover, Rhea of her best friend Jocelyn’s middle-aged lover. And yes, Charlie’s father and Jocelyn’s lover are one-in-the-same; these stories are sections from the same novel, after all. Rhea’s sense of tough in that teetering space between childhood and young adulthood is clearer to us than Charlie’s, however. This certainly stems from the perspective of “Ask Me If I Care” belonging solely to Rhea. From the “blue shag carpeting and crisscross wallpaper” and “the mountain of stuffed animals, which all turn out to be frogs” to the coke-buzzed moment in the crowded, music-fretted, slam-fighting Casbah, there is a disparity to this coming-of-age story that feels very real. Caught in the cross-wires between childhood and what comes next, Rhea finds herself back in Sea Cliff, without Jocelyn, discovering that Alice, once on the periphery—the “ask me if I care” girl—is really just another girl on the brink. In this way they have more in common than Rhea could’ve known, even before this moment, one in which Alice’s house and yard are cast in sunlight and the comfort of childhood is still with them in the form of Alice’s younger sisters, “two little girls… slapping a bright-yellow ball around a silver pole.”
In all three of these stories there is a sense of young girls and realization. “Foster” keeps us clothed in the dungarees and simplicity of childhood with love arising from unexpected places. “Safari” sets forth a kaleidoscope of perspectives, all relating their own version of the same tale, Charlie’s adolescent viewpoint shadowed and illuminated by the other surrounding ones. “Ask Me If I Care” throws us into the forceful teenage years of the late ‘70’s in which Rhea nearly loses her balance, landing head-first into a world too dark and too old for her just yet, but while allowing her the safety of a glance back at the sunny backyard of childhood. Perspective and language give these stories similar ground, from the close point of view of the girls to the barest language possible, stretched like fine, raw material over the authors’ intentions.
*These are two recent pieces of Egan’s forthcoming novel, A Visit from the Goon Squad, that – along with “Found Objects” in 2007— have appeared in The New Yorker.